My Dad was my Father, not God...

First listen to this song,
http://youtu.be/djrY_eFDOwE
The rest of this post will make much more sense.


God the Father,

I never fully understood it

So many people struggle with 

God as a Father.

Usually When I come across someone

who has trouble viewing God as a Father,

It's because they had a crappy dad.

I don't (do) mean to brag,

But.. 

My dad is better than your dad.

He is by no means a perfect human being

or he would be Jesus,

But he is perfect in my eyes.

He gets me.

He loves me.

He prays for me.

He showed me that your past does not

dictate your future.

He showed me that I can do anything I put my mind to.

and  loved me so unconditionally 

especially through times of silence from me.

I put my parents through a great deal of

silence

 and therefore

pain

But they loved me still, they never gave up.

because of hurts by friends growing up and my 

own point of view, I shut down

I shut them out

My parents were not my safe place,

for many years.

Much of my high school life

was

and still 

is

a secret to them.

I was doing stupid things, 

and knew they wouldn't approve

and  I knew it would hurt them.

mostly because they raised me to be better than 

how I was acting.

so I made a habit of telling them nothing

still,

they prayed for me

and tried their best to be a part 

of my life. 

They showed me unconditional love.

and comforted me in times when I was vulnerable enough to be

comforted.

My dad hugs me every day

every day that I am in his presence

hugs

multiple times a day

and loving words when I am struggling

My dad operates in my love languages

he IS my love languages.

I think without even trying,

He just IS perfection to me.
Because he does his best to be my dad
and that's all I can ask for

_____________________________

When I looked at God, the Trinity (Father, Son, and Holy Spirit)

I saw Holy Spirit -- Helping me, guiding me, being my conscience

I saw Jesus -- My friend, someone I can pray in the name of

Someone who understands everything I am going through because

He walked the Earth -- He understands

And I saw God the Father as, God but not a father

The One who oversees my life, makes sure I'm taken care of

the One Jesus advocates for me to

just God, not a Father,

I couldn't understand how 

God is a Father.

When I was sad, I didn't feel Him comfort me

like my dad would.

I couldn't hear His words of love

whispered in my ear.

I just couldn't understand how 

any Dad could be better than

Avery Evashkevich,

not Even God,

After really experiencing Jesus this year,
(which is in another blog post earlier this year)
everything has changed in my view of God.
I felt God the Father comfort me in a way I've never been before

I have come to realize that God is my Father
I can now finally see how God the Father comforts me,
How God the Father looks after me,
I can finally hear Him whisper in my ear, words of comfort.
I realize now that it doesn't look the same as my dad's comfort

 

Because God is not a physical being.

therefore it's hard to hug someone.

and that's all I was looking for , for many years

But now I see all the different ways 

God the Father

comforts me,

It's amazing.

It's comforting,

My dad is

STILL

the best dad in the world.

Especially since our relationship 

has been rekindled, and the years of silence are over.

My dad is still better than your dad.  ;)

but he is still not perfect, because he is human,

and I am glad for that because

My God, God the Father..

He is perfect,

He is a GOOD GOOD Father,

That's who He is

and I am LOVED my Him,

That's Who I am.

This is Springtime.
Hugs and beans
Alia Evashkevich

There's no REAL explaination

or formula to how I got to the point where I am now,

Just a lot of seeking God the Father 

when it felt like He was silent.

It's like an experience that can't really

be explained with words.. 

i encourage you to seek God,

whatever 'spiritual level' you're at...